Simplicity

Have you ever just discovered that the things that you cherish most in life aside from God seem to be the simple moments.. In these times you feel alive.. They could be just seeing a car pass, watching the snow fall, holding someone's hand, or taking a nap.. In these times you can do nothing but smile... and wait for the next.. It is amazing how intricate and detailed each one of us was made... by the handy work of the Creator himself... He knows everything.. every desire, thought, and action. He knows how we are wired and what we want... he knows that each and everyone of us desires compansionship.. and he even knows through whom this will be fulfilled?? But in the mean time it sure is wonderful to be able to enjoy the simple things in life and continue to build a life meaningful, wonderful, yet simple at the same time...

instant expressions

Wow... Well physics is over for the day however... my day has only begun.. I figure it is noon right now and I will probably be in the library until somewhere in the range of midnight.. so that leaves me with another twelve hours left of my day.. pretty fantastic huh? Just ate a little lunch.. salad... ham... bun.. 3 cookies... yummy... yah.. yah.. then I am still running errands like crazy.. but that is okay.. cuz I have to get some things done... I do have to go to Human Development lab here in about an hour or so.. this week we are going to check out some chicken eggs.. like cut them open and look at them.. fun stuff like that!!

Today so far has not been bad.. :) But I know that when it comes down to me writing my lab report tonight... I bet that I am going to get a little stressed out? And probably doing my patented "deep sigh of stress...." So if you think about it later.. send some happy thoughts my way and maybe a smile or especially a prayer... :) I know that I will make it through but sometimes it seems pretty tough.
"Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up." - Thomas Alva Edison

Good quote.. I mean it can be applied to so many things.. relationships.. school.. homework... test... life.. Every time you think that you are not doing so well just remember that means that you are only that much closer to success and keep going!! I learned you can give up... and you can't change who you are or what you do... So do it well.. and let everyone else worry about the rest!! Easier said that done sometimes.. but knowing God is on our side only adds confidence in what you do! However stay open and be flexible to God changing stuff.. :) God can and most likely will bring people or circumstances or numerous other things into your life when you least expect them... but embrace them and know that they are a blessing to your life and just the RIGHT moment!! When I take the time to step back and reflect on such things.. I see those people that I am greatful for.. and look at my circumstances.. and try to keep them in perspective.. but many times it takes a lot of relying on God... but I can't wait to see what happens next???

Pajama Party

Right now I am still in my pajamas... just sitting here in my room awaiting as the time slips into the future and my day gets closer and closer to starting... Wish there was some way of delaying time today so that I could sleep a couple of extra hours... or maybe have like a fast forward button so that I could speed up parts of today and they would get over quicker.. you know.. ya that would be nice... but life doesn't happen like that... yet sometimes time goes faster than others or at least so it seems... hmmm interesting.. that is what I say to that!! Today is a new day with its many tasks... so I guess that I should get to checking them off.. one by one... yeppers... Physics at 9:30 this morning... you know I can't wait until that...

"In Christ's family there can be no division into Jew and non-Jew, slave and free, male and female. Among us you are all equal. That is, we are all in a common relationship with Jesus Christ." Galations 3:28 MSG

Remember that today when you pass everyone as you go throughout your busy and hectic day... and sometimes you even walk past people that you don't make eye contact with.. and remember they are equal to you and God loves them just as much as you! God is amazing and don't you think that your family needs to hear about him!! Let God overflow from you today so that even people that see you or you see them will know that there is something different about you.. We love God cuz he loved us first...

Tea TIme

So today is only monday and I already feel worn out.. That is bad isn't it?? I need another weekend to rejuvenate... ;) So started off like any other day... Woke up went to chapel.. then I went to work.. and at work I actually got to eat lunch and then give a HUGE tour but luckily a couple people realized that there was no way that I could give a tour that big and broke it in half.. Thanks.. then I went to class until about 4:00 then I had a few minute break.. a quick dinner.. straight to work at six until nine.. then straight to the library from nine until 11:45... geez... talk about a long day...

AHHH.... Deep breathe... Broke down in the library and had to get a Chai Latte.. from Star Bucks to keep me going tonight... Even though I paid a lot for it.. I throughly needed and enjoyed it!! My life is not so eventful... when I speed the majority of it in the library... lol.. But I really do like my life... it makes me smile..

Red ridiculous radishes running rampant. I don't know where that came from I just tried to make a sentances with the same letter for every word.. and I am choose the letter 'r' for some reason and I am not sure why?? But either way that is what sentence came out... it is harder than it sounds... if you think of one let me know.. leave a comment... cuz anyone can!! :) Tomorrow brings a new day and with it comes with its own worries.. so tonight I must sleep peaceefully and worry about tomorrow's worryies when they get here.. makes sense right? Day by day... that's how I got to do it... You know what makes my day.. is having something or someone that makes you smile no matter what is going on in your day... It just helps and I can't really explain it.. but it is wonderful thing... You know it is funny because I find great enjoyment in doing little things for people.. and right now I hope that certain people don't mind being at the receiving end of that!!! Why do I do what I do and why am I wired the way that I am? I couldn''t tell you, but I know that God knows the reason... and I am glad.. and I am also glad that a person(s) like me for who I am and the way that I am wired... Well I am off to get recharged... Night..

weekend excursions...

There is no way that I can do justice to my weekend in the few minutes that I have to write.. but I will try to at least give you an overview.. Friday started out kind of slow and actually got bored and decided that I really need to do something so me and Drew decided to go and see Constantine... it was a pretty good movie and definately made you think... about spiritual warfare and also brought up many concepts and ideas that you probably have never thought about... Saturday I woke up and went to the basketball game.. where we beat IWU in overtime... then I proceeded to have some of the best chicken I have ever eaten... along with asparagus??? Which I wasn't sure about.... but I had never tried it before so I ate it anyway and it wasn't all that bad... it did have some side affects but all and all it was pretty good and now I can make a more educated decision on whether I want to eat it next time... And you can't forget desert warm apple pie and vanilla ice cream... it was a wonderful dinner.. After that I had the opportunity to look at pictures.. watch a couple of movies.. hear about conversations with relatives.. and just talk most of the night away!! And I loved it!!!! Sunday.. I mean what can I even say about sunday?? I went to church... and my bad did some unusal stuff... I mean I broke into a sweat.. was tingly... weak.. and more... needless to say I didn't know what was going on.. but thanks to vera nice person.. I made it through.. after some transfer of the negative energy and stuff you Green Mile stuff... So after that I went and had the opportunity to work the Honors Showcase... met a lot of students.. then came back here and watched a movie, "The day after tomorrow.." which was pretty good... :) Weekends just fly by.. but I guess it helps when you are having fun with people you like.. even though it went fast. I had a blast.. and I wish that I could write more right now?? It is nice to have a person really care about you isn't it?

Twinkle Twinkle I'm a...

I don't even know what to write?? I mean today has been a day... but a good one at that? I mean I went through all of my classes... was still kinda of tired.. and ended up missing orchestra tonight?? But it had to be done... Life never ceases to amaze me.. have you ever just taken just a moment in you hectic life to just look around and see where you are at... whom you are sitting next to... what your doing? where your at in your life?? where you want to be? what next.. and then take a deep breathe and thank God you are a live and you come to the realization of just how awesome God truly is. It seems like when I look back on my life it seems like such a blur and just a few days to get me to where I am now in my life... but it has definately been more than that... and now I am already a Junior in college... waiting to see what God has planned for me next.. Most recently my life has been so vivid to me and I have been loving it!! Life seems to just build on itself day after day.. however it keeps me guessing as well... it seems to be the moments when I do things that make my heart beat faster, or involve taking a "little" risk, or just things that make me smile... that keep things fun.. but then again it is even more than that.. I guess I don't really know how to describe it and if I try I won't do it justice... Right now I am pretty tired... and for some reason I keep eating these tic tacs like candy.. but at least I can breathe great out of my nose!! :) Well I think that I am going to be proactive and try and do a little something about my tiredness and hit the sack here in a few.. I got to test my yawning hypothesis out a little bit tonight and I still got nothing... so ponder on.. and let me know of any interesting thoughts.. Night!!

Gets the red out!

So I managed to drag my lazy self out of bed this morning later than usually only to remember that I have a test and a quiz to day... and all my body could say was that it was still tired and that it was warm in my covers... Either way I continued in my morning routine and low and behold my eye is red again... ? What is up with that?? So then I tried to but eye drops in my eye but was quite unsuccessful I might add.. I guess I will just have to make an appointment with my really eye dropper person and maybe they can help me out with my drops?? I am only half ready for the day at this point I am sitting here in my desk chair in the dark with khakis on, an under shirt, a button up on (but not buttoned up), and a pair of flip flops... not to mention my left eye is all red? Wow.. one thing that I do have going for me is that today is Thursday... :) which only means one thing... That tomorrow is FRIDAY! Not sure what I will do this weekend... but hopefully it will include a few things... but we will have to see... So I just realized that I am cold right now too... guess I should but on socks and stuff to help me out with that?? Today is just going to be one of those days til it is over! You know? I like that... :) I did see that we have snow or at least heard the snow outside but I have not got to experience it yet?? I take that back I did wake up to the scrapping of off the steps outside Ormston which was kind of a stinky way to get up, but by that time I had already hit the snooze twice... so I am not mad it was just God's way of telling me kindly to Get UP! You know... you just have got to look at things like that?? So check this out.. I have already blogged and it is only eight something in the morning.. very unusal for me... Well I would keep writing but I have got to run to go to physics.. but maybe be back later...

Sea Urchin Sex

So I was thinking earlier today? You know how they always say that yawns are contagious... well just how contagious are they? I was sitting in chapel.. and I saw someone across the sanctuary yawn.. and then a few minutes later I yawned as well? Is there like a certain radius in which a yawn is contagious, like fifteen foot radius or something? And do we have to see the yawn in order for it to be contagious?? I don't know either but I thought that it was kind of interesting to think about a little... So the next time you yawn.. wait a few minutes then call someone else and see if they yawned?? If nothing else you will have a good excuse to call someone... I know who I would call...

Well lets see besides that I have had a busy day... I really don't like being rushed and I felt like I was for most of the day... I even rushed through dinner so that I could go to my guitar lessons which were cancelled but what can you do. Then I called tonight.. which wasn't too bad.. then I was off to the library from nine until 11:30... geez.. I think I live there sometimes... Oh yes.. and for all of you wondering out there the spiny little critters known as sea urchins have arrived as of Wednesday. So never fear I will be watching the fertilization of the sea urchins on Friday.. which should be interesting... Sea urchins are pretty werid looking things in the first place.. if you haven't seen one before you should... :) I am not sure what to expect for this "process" of fertilization or the product.. but either way I am going to see some sweet developmental stages in the sea urchin embryos...

All this talk about yawning.. is making me tired... which I am so I should go to bed and have pleasant dreams.. but hopefully they don't include sea urchins... lol... Well have a great night.. Oh yes and if you think of it shoot up a pray for me and my stats test on Thursday at about 11:30! I studied and everything so we will see... Catch you on the flip side!

The Big Cookie

Well.. I consumed a big cookie that I recieved from my valentine in two days.. I think that she is trying to make me fat... ;) Nah.. I don't think that I have too much to worry about yet.. But the cookie was really good.. but I do wish that I would have had a big ice cold glass of milk.. but either way it was good stuff.. I am curious as to know if she was able to make the cookie any more healthy for me.. cause she is good at that.. but I am not sure that she can make a cookie healthy for you and make it taste that good...

Today.. I didn't do much just went to JCC this morning.. and then came back from that and went to lunch and got to eat lunch and see a baby.. they are really cute.. and no matter what they do.. they are always cute and make us smile... Then come to find out that my Human development lab got cancelled today because our sea urchins did not get here in time so we could not observe fertilization... however this turned out to be a blessing for me today because I used the lab time to write my lab report which I need to do for tomorrow and I actually got it done by about six or so tonight... and then ate dinner.. had a really bad headache.. took some stuff for it.. took a quick nap on Drew's couch when he wasn't in his room which I am still not quite sure how that happened?? But either way today has been a pretty good day.. I am kind of tired and not really sure why so I will probably head to bed momentarily.. but I look forward to seeing what God has for me tomorrow.. and whom he will put in my path.. ya can't wait... Isn't it great to get something extra that you don't expect... like someone to eat lunch with... or a smile you didn't expect.. or to hear from someone you care about.. or just to be able to have time to sit and think and reminance... well I am glad I had some of that much needed relaxation time tonight.. not sure why I am so tired.. but I think I am going to hit the sack early and try and let my body catch up with me.... I must be getting old... I am out...

Mixed Morning Thoughts

So why am I writing a blog this early? I don't even know... but thought I would give it a try... So what makes Valentine's day special? You don't hear anything about the day after Valentine's day.. or the day after the day after Valentine's day? I know that Valentine's day is fun and all.. but I don't think that we should need a calender to tell us that we should show are appreciation?? Well that is enough about Valentine's day because it is over.... Day after day things cease to amaze me... I mean I wake up this morning tired as can be but I still get up at 8:00 which is early whether you believe it or not and get ready.. and even knowing about all of the tons of homework I have to do, and all of the class I have to do.. I still know that it is going to be a good day! How can it not be a good day especially when you have got a Big cookie just waiting to be eaten... it's Brain food... I don't really know what else to say because I mean not much has happened today yet... In a few minutes I leave for physics and then the real fun begins... lol... so maybe something will happen in the near future that I can write about... but for now I am signing off... but Life is good.. :)

It's been awhile..

Sorry for the delay.. I have been busy or preoccuppied if you will lately? But I figure what better day to start to write again than Valentine's day? So lets see what has been on my mind... Have you ever started out to do something and not quite sure what it doing it is going to look like but as it develops it is amazing and wonderful... How about how things are are soo much easier in your mind or in private than actually doing them.. What is up with that?

The end of last week and some of this weekend.. I had the opportunity at times to just think.. which I love to do.. and just to analyze things.. but I think the best time that I got to think is when I woke up on Saturday just cuz I woke up not to an alarm or anything.. then I continued to lay in bed for another two hours.. however I did fall asleep for some unknown amount of time.. but just sitting there and just giving myself a mental message.. helps to untensify my mind... just let it wonder and take a load off.. thinking about random stuff.. or not so random stuff too... :)

This weekend was really informative to me as well to realize exactly what I have... and appreciate it as well... I am sooo lucky to have everything that I have... friends... health... and more... And I am grateful.. and I look forward to seeing what comes of tomorrow.. :) Well unfortunately.. I am growing tired and I am sorry that I haven't really said anything but maybe tomorrow I will think of something with a more specific subject.. Vera good... night..

Hot showers...

Ever taken a hot long shower.. and just feel so like relaxed that you just want to kind of sit and be?? Well try and take a long hot shower when you are already kind of tired.. Tiredness seems to continue to torture me today.. I think that I have not caught back up since my five o'clock morning... So right now I am in that tingly floating exhausted state.. trying to type.. I got in the shower and really didn't want to get out... but the clean feeling and smell is an added bonus.. well I am gonna lay down for a sec and just listen to music for a minute.. :)

SMALL big World

You ever think about how we ourselves shape and form our world in a sense. Yes I know that God is all-knowing and creates everything, but we still have that choice. Depending on how you feel when you wake up you can make it be a good day or a bad day before you even roll out of bed... We have the power to make our world that big or small. You have the choice of whom to allow into your life.. to know you.... We construct and deminish our worlds in contradicting fashions daily.. The famous coined phrase that your choices today affect tomorrow really applies here... a choice in the now to talk to someone today could be a friend tomorrow or a life long companion... but you still have to take that choice to take the action, to live in the now.. what is the true impact of your choice... in the movies it is soo easy to rewind and replay a different path, but in life it isn't so easy so make it count the first time.. Customize your world... make it your own.. we are this generation for a reason and God can and will do amazing things in our life time.. The world through your own eyes is unique, original, and perfect and remember that and when the time is right God will give you that superb person who will only complement you in ways undescribible and unimaginable... So work on your world and find out what that looks like... know who you are.. and God will continue to bless you at unexpected and numerous times.. God is sweet.. :)

be weird

As humans we are mix of spontaneous and routine.. of course some of us come in different ratios.. but have you ever thought about that? What about the way are mind works or wonders... Or how about in those spontenous times or those routine times?? Do you thrive in the routine parts of your life and make them different and unique to you and only you? And in random moments when you are out of your comfort zone do your shrink up and feel small and not yourself?? After you do something day after day.. it becomes routine.. and almost boring in a sense which makes you want to do it only because it is a routine. So why not make those things fun... Hum while you brush your teeth... put your head at the other end of your bed when you sleep.. sit in the front row of your class.. smile at people.. wave at people.. Be happy and show it... Take the moment of life that you have at a specific moment and make it yours.. customize it.. mold it.. and LIVE it to the fullest!

Why sometimes is it hard to be yourself?? And how do you know what being yourself truly is? Sometimes you don't feel like you are yourself you just "is".. I know that when I am myself I am happy... I smile... just feels right.. confidence I suppose? Or maybe being silent and just being and observing is part of who I am, too? I don't know... but I say surround yourself by those people that allow you to be yourself.. becoming sure of yourself.. not shy.. and developing into yourself... is soo cool. Finding that balance between spontaneity and routineness.. will never be a sure thing.. and in a sense I don't think it should because it maintains the sense of not knowing which only makes life that much more exciting and interesting... Routines are great.. but randomness and surprises never hurt.. So enjoy life and switch it up!!

Melting

So today... was just one of those rainy winter days that produces melting slush and muddy messes.. but I am not complain because warmth is good... but today was also a cloudy day which just kind of made it feel like one of those days that you just want to sleep.. stay in bed and just be lazy.. but of course that wasn't an option for me... I got out of bed went to chapel, work, class, back to work, and a quick trip to the library... exciting huh? Yeah so either way I have been pretty tired all day.. but I think that I have decided that I am going to bed early.. (at least by my standards.. :) )

Well while at work I got to listen to some music and I listen to a song by Riley Armstrong... the same one he sang in chapel about being an ice cube melting.. and it just made me think about the weather outside.... But it also got me to think about other melting stuff.. Daily time melts away... What about how sometimes when you find your passion and your heart melts over it.. Your whole self melts for that one person for whom you search for persistantly throughout your life.. We melt at what God does daily for us.. and you cannot forget how an ice cube melts.. Melting is such an amazing phenomenon.

Miscellaneous Music of My Life

Lets see this weekend.. I have enjoyed doing the minimum of homework... :) But beyond that this weekend I got to go the Jackson Symphony Orchestra.. And it was a lot of fun.. I have not actually gone to a symphony or orchestra concert that I have not played in, in quite some time. South of the border music was played.... and they had three visiting guitarists... and they were really good.. While hearing them though it just made me think about me and my guitar? And how I would love to be able to only have a smidge of the talent that they incase. All the sounds encompassed in the evening seemed to mesh perfectly and constantly surprise me in the sounds capable of being made by such an ensemble. Music..... music is such an enjoyable and amazing thing. Music is capable of so many things.. it can change our mood, reminisce memories, allow us to express ourselves or even just supply a medium in which we can exist.

Music in my life takes on so many different forms... At times it is so easy going, soft and light.. and in just a few measures it can change to complicated, quick, heavy and loud. But that is what makes music and life so great there is so much variety.. some pieces of music may have its ups and downs but when the piece is finished is when you see or hear the true beauty of it. And I think memories play a similar role in our lives.. beauty... variety... and more..

So needless to say JSO was great and the company was wonderful...

KEMPFS

Sorry it has been a few days since my last entry.. but the library has gotten in the way... But today was just a good day for the most part!! The only kinda bad part was the fact I had a physics test.. but it was nice to get that over with I mean I feel like a great worry and weight has been lifted off my shoulders... but besides that I had a GREAT day!!! I mean I got to work and work was just great because it was fun I mean what can I say? Then I got to go back to work... and call be which was fun because you can make anything fun you know it is all a state of mind. I didn't really get to eat dinner.. I mean I had some oatmeal.. but it is always nice to have some people about your good health or at least hunger and even bring you cheese nips to tide you over!!! Then I was off to the library to finish a little homework.. well that was all good and fun but there is nothing like a little KEMPFS with my favorite and only partner... with our secret sign... (Don't tell the sign :) ) A little human development "studying" brought a few good laughs and some new found knowledge.... Then a quick trip to Taco Bell.. and that brings me to the present.. chillin in my room.. with Drew and Aaron.. trying to update the blog a little.. well I mean what can I say I mean it is like two in the morning.. and I need some sleep.. here.. you know.. IT IS FRIDAY.. Isn't that a good thing... I know it is for me.. Spring is in the air.. kinda.. It gotta really warm today and I didn't want to wear a jacket so I didn't most of the day.. and the sun was nice.. and gave my skin goosebumps... but a good type of goosebumps you know? I mean there are certain situations that goosebumps are good.. and I will let you figure out what they are. I mean today I was just in an amazing and wonderful mood for most of the day.. That is good and just couldn't stop smiling and it is days like this that it just seems easier to be me?? I don't know.. Oh well... I think that it is getting late and I am sure that at this point I am not making much sense.. but I am out to get some sleep and maybe a dream in the mix as well.. Peace...

Second Home

Well I am back at my old tricks... I went to the library at six o'clock tonight after dinner and I was there until about a quarter after midnight.. That is a nice solid six hours in the library.. who does that? But I just continued to tell myself in a wise voice "That it will make me a better dentist someday," it is easier said than done when I have to spend that much time at the library... I am not complaining though... All I got done tonight was my lab report and I wanted to accomplish so much more.. but what can you do... I mean I got to go with the flow and check off each day as it comes.. Sorry I really don't have any exciting stories to write about... cuz I was just in the library? But maybe I will think of something in the near future and besides that it is getting late and I was tired to begin with today.. so I have got to get some sleep.. Peace out...

Beautified

Even though it was sooo cold out this morning... while I was riding to JCC this morning it was so gorgeous and beautiful out. I mean when I riding while trying to fight to stay awake.. I noticed the frost covered trees.. it was so amazing. Unfortunately I woke up to late to see the fog but I heard about it... But seeing everything frosted over and frozen it was so marvelous.. I mean when I see stuff like that I can't help but to smile and just think about God's goodness.. God is an amazing artist and he created beauty itself.. and aren't you glad that he did.. Beauty maybe in the eye of the beholder.. but I am glad that I can be a beholder and see beautiful things.. it just makes life more enjoyable and happy if you will!!! So smile and look for the beauty in things all around you everyday.. they are there.. you just have to look!! :)

Blah!

So check this out... I mean today I woke up and had to force my eyes open and go to my physics class at JCC.. and we all know how cold it was this morning.. and I definately just wanted to stay in my bed all warm and cozy you know? But couldn't as usual. So any way I went to JCC.. for physics.. and I have just had the worst day as far as trying to keep myself awake and assertive. I mean on the ride over and during class.. and even now to some extent I just feel like I am here.. and kind of zoning out... just taking up space and hearing things but really having to force myself to be awake and do work and stuff... It seems like know that I am back in classes I just get more tired.. It is like with all my new added busyness... I get wore down faster and end up being even more tired by early evening.. We wll see what I can do about that... Not to mention that this week is insane as it is... I mean I have a lab report due tomorrow that I have to do.. homework due on thursday along with a test.. have some statistics homework due on friday with a quiz to top it off in Human Development.. but you know what it is all good and I will get through it and do fine!! But I can't wait until the weekend... Today's classes are almost over.. just a three hour lab.. and then like five hours of homework in the library... but I am getting there and checking one thing off at a time... so YEAH... Well back at it I go!! Have a great day all.. :)

Back to real life!

Back to the busyness of life.. and back to the stressful routine called life.. but I think that it is just stressful because it is new I am sure that I will find a balance soon and figure it out. Man I am tired.. from the day... Geez I am getting tired... so I am sorry that I am not getting to write much.. My day seemed to be rushed... I don't like feeling as if I was rushed.. I think that I just need to figure out how long it takes me to eat.. and everything so that I know how long I have and knw that I won't be rushed... I don't know I know at this point I am not making any sense... So enjoy cuz I gotsta get some sleep.. Cuz sleep is good.. and so is green!! Night...