Enthusiasm

So School is nearing and I am bittersweet about the transition... I want to be excited and am kind of excited, but for what? I have a hard time with that?? Have you ever had one or some of those inner hurts? Bottled up misunderstandings? supressed feelings?? They suck don't they? Not only that but they affect and alter the rest of your life and relationships! I am drained in so many ways and facets that I don't even know what exactly to do anymore? My love remains constant.. my person remains true... my understanding is limited.. but never the less is what I have to be and deal with..

As a human we have so many needs... and wants.. and sometimes it is hard to distinguish between the two? Sometimes it really doesn't seem to be fair?? But I can't start to question that? I am who I am Sam I am! And I do not like green eggs and ham! A little flashback to one of my favorite children's book! Showing self worth.. self uniqueness.. and that being okay.. while at the sametime emphazing the importance of trying new things.. and to not discount them until you do try them!

This morning I got up and got ready just like so many other mornings... Took my shower.. Got ready and got to work ready to work early, or ontime if you will.. only to sit ther for about ten or so minutes before getting in to work! But whatever.. stuff happens.. life goes on.. you learn from it.. and you still don't know anything.. Depend on God and see where you go? Well I know these are some random thoughts?? But hopefully more to follow? :)

Change in a BANG!

Change comes often and unexpectedly.. whether it be a friend moving, a new job offer, a new day, and many more that happen momentarily! Isn't it crazy how life does just continue to move never slowing.. for anyone.. whether you think so or not? If you have one of those slow days.. of just lounging on the couch.. not taking a shower until three or four in the afternoon.. just think about how the world somewhere.. people are getting married, babies born, people dying, decisions made, wars started, politics, and we all know the stockmarket nevers seems to slow? How does that make one feel to know while you may just lounge and snack on junk food.. people and/or kids are dying, starving... doctors saving lives?? I mean I just can't even understand or comprehend this idea that different things are ongoing simultaneously and independantly from one another? I being born who I am in the place where I am yet?? Others are born into another place.. being another person with different circumstances... and why was I born here or put here and why them there?? Why am I not a starving person in Africa?? And why is the child in Africa not somewhere else? I don't know?? But one thing I do know.. GOD KNOWS! As much as I think about such things and even try to understand them I won't?? I might think that I do.. but I know that GOD has got it and he will continue to guide and reveal the purpose for my circumstances and environment! God is truly AMAZING! And I take this time to thank him for being who he is! Guide my path.. sit in the Driver's seat and take the wheel.. I want to buckle up and come along for the ride.. God there are so many things that are going on in my life right now??? And I honestly don't know the answers or outcome of them... But I pray that you will be in what I do and also in what I plan to do! God help to make the most of TODAY and worry about tomorrow when the time comes! Help to not get stressed out or frustrated and rather give it to you instead! Thanks JC! I am out!

Rediscovery!

Have you ever done something.. or rather not done something that you liked for a long time?? Like you used to do something a lot cuz you liked very much.. and then after a break from it.. you reDISCOVER it! My most rediscovery is music.. geez do I like music...? And when I buy a CD or listen to some music it only makes me want more?? Why?? Something you like and enjoy and are passionate about only seems to complete you! Do you think that the same theory applies to people.. and their friends.. companions.. parents.. siblings?? In a way I really do think that the breaks or even distance sometimes can make you grow that much more in love with the person. Isn't it wierd how maybe distance or a break could be such a good thing for a relationship?? I know it is piviotal?? But think about it.. communicating in ways you are used to or just different ways!

Long time..

So it has been forever since I last posted?? But I figure I needed to post some?? My life has become extremely crazy?? Between finishing up stuff for Latin American Study Program stuff.. and scholarships relating.. as well as worrying about Dental stuff.. all at the sametime.. figuring out that school is extremely near?? Crazy to think in a matter of about 10 days or so school will be here?? Not sure if I am ready... but I relly hope that this semester proves to be easy because I am senior I deserve a little break! :) However my GF has been EXTREMELY helpful in this whole process and transition period!

So I really don't know what to type?? I mean all the buddies have come and already been redistrubuted in our various locations.. But I guess bring on the year??? I mean before I know it it will be Thanksgiving. then Christmas and then I am out to Costa Rica hopefully.. Crazy wouldn't you say?? Things are hopefully going to start falling into places... Time to start trying to piece together a room with my sweet roomy! Hang out.. do some class stuff.. and Get 'R Done! Well out for now.. and hope to write again soon and more frequently!

In Honor of Kirby!

Discovery LAUNCH
Originally uploaded by Jamo267.

Much support to the Kirbster.. and all other future "NASAites" Rocketry and space stuff is complex.. and many times confusing to me.. but I am glad some people like it.. and I can't think of a better person to be working for them.. Best of luck Kirby! :) Miss ya on O1!

Emily goodness

E and friend
Originally uploaded by Jamo267.

Isn't my girlfriend SO cute! She likes animals and well animals like her.. We went to the Jackson County fair and well basically went there just so she could see all of the animals! And this is her friend who happens to be a little goat.. and because I don't know the goats name for this post I dub him as Fred! So our buddy Fred must have found out how SWEET my GF really is because he is suckling on her fingers... Geez this is a pretty big step for someone who is a germophob! Either way I am extremely blessed to have E in my life.. and well lets just say Fred was lucky to have experienced Emily... but Back of bud.. I don't want to butt heads but she is mine!

J and EM

J and EM
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Nothing like lounging in some sunday dress after church! :) Yah plaid shorts! Em said we looked like we were from the 50's? Ah.. we were cute! But do I look like I could golf or what?

So when I was naming this picture it was kinda funny because I named it J and EM... well 'J' for me and 'EM' for Emily.. and well so it was kind of ironic cuz my initials are JEM... Oh well I am sure that no one cares but I thought I would share that because I thought it and well it is just more fun when you share your thoughts.. I am sure someone wanted to hear it?? And for those of you who didn't want to hear it can disregard it!

Today is Tuesday.. and it is not going as quickly as Monday! But it is stinking HOT outside? Hmmm?? Oh well... I can't believe that it is already August 9th.. that is just crazy if you ask me!? School is just around the corner and well I hope that is a good thing but I guess only time will tell! But I will get to see my Roomy who ditched me for the rest of the summer and headed to Minneapolis?? but whateve! Hope to see my buddies before they split! And probably the beach before I got to hit the books of a BIO major!

Well enjoy the pic and catch you later!

Gas?

So I was thinking about the price of gas on my way to work because it has just gotten out of hand... $2.55 per/gal?? What is that?? I mean everyone went crazy when gas went over two dollars.. but yet.. the price continues to inch up daily... and yet we continue to pay the prices! How can we "boycott" these outrageous and record breaking prices? I really don't know?? But I was also thinking about this and thought do you think that the government could be in on this whole thing! Obvious the government has technology that we don't know about and some of that technology probably has to do with transportation.. and possibly using a reduced amount of gas if any!?? And with the new year approaching it seems to me that all of these car companies are introducing more and more hybrid and electric cars?? Why?? Because of extreme gas prices there is a market for them! Do you think that the oil reserves and starting to run low so the government is jacking gas prices just so that the hybrid cars would seem more desirable and economically smart.. so that we begin to buy them hoping to extend our oil reserves?? Or do you think that there is any connection with the recent revealings of all of these hybrid cars and the high gas prices?? Could there be a connection?? What can we do?? Is there anything??? Traveling has become more and more hard to do.. because of the outrageous gas prices and it is almost cheaper to fly than drive.. will it come down to having an airport in all towns that are "anything" so that you can fly from place to place even if it would only take you an hour to drive to your destination.. is that what the future is going to come down to.. flying as being the main mode of transportation... Without gas stations it seems that the economy would crumble... so how can the government compensate for that as well as make a transition into an alternative plan of transportation?? Would high gas prices be enough to "compensate" because of the many people who will be unable to afford hybrid or electric cars as they have to gringe everytime they fill up there outdated gas-run vehicle?? I don't know but an interesting concept I think?

People traffic!?

Isn't it crazy the way that people come and go in your life!? Those who stay in touch and prove to be "good" and "life-long" friends and then there are those who prove they are not! But what really seems to amaze me is when you step back and truly realize the overall picture.. Sometimes God just shows his power and all-knowing knowledge! To get a friend when you need one.. meet a gf or bf right at a superb time.. or a friend leaves after being there or fulfilling a need or purpose.. that you may or maynot be blind to! People come and go everyday.. and we don't think twice about it! People traffic... it isn't so different then driving around in vehicle in a busy and big city! People walk around with almost a bubble surrounding them... always going somewhere.. delayed at lights.. construction.. or other slow moving "vehicles." I just know that in my life people have come and gone.. but there have also been those who have stuck true.. taken the time to get the "true" me and have continued to stay in contact! It is great! Even when it tough to sometimes say goodbye.. many times is for the better! Whether yours or the other person.. Have you have a similar experience.. get a friend right before another one leaves.. or get one right when you need the encouragement or then comforting?? How can people not see God's hand in that?

Beautiful Sight!

Em Rocky National Park
Originally uploaded by Jamo267.

The back drop to this picture almost looks fake to me... I really wish that I could have been part of the trip out there.. but oh well... kinda had a psuedo-family vaca... and well I really didn't get to take part, but it was neat to hear all of the stories and see how the interactions amoung various people.. played out.. namely my bros and my gf! But also all those other people there too... whether it be people I knew or didn't know.

Tonight I get to ride with to go get my gf from the airport.. and well needless to say I am pretty excited... and then it is Friday and a weekend is near which only makes today that much better.... I forsee this weekend holding a race for me to run in on Saturday morning.. and then probably a lot of lounging.. spending time with the "girl".. maybe a movie and hopefully enjoy the magnificent weather! So hopefully the rest of the not so fun part of my day goes by realtively quickly so I can get onto the fun stuff! :) Peace out.. and God bless!

Determination

Determination
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Nice big glasses! I like! :) Bite that lip... Emily looks so determined and focused! And she was scared! She looks like a pro! And check out those muscles.. gosh she is HOT! :)

Confusion?

Confusion?
Originally uploaded by Jamo267.

Today is my little bros bday.. and he turns 15... HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAVIN! He got this pic taken yesterday.. but he looks a little disoriented?? But hey.. he is doing well!!

Bring it on?

Bring it on?
Originally uploaded by Jamo267.

Jeret looks pretty intense in this picture?? I am sure he was having a blast.. I mean he was a Boy Scout!! But he also looks a little burnt?? Maybe it is just me?

White Water Rafting

White Water Rafting
Originally uploaded by Jamo267.

So here is a picture.. of some white water rafting done yesterday.. The crew included both of my bros.. and my girl Em! Looks like a lot of fun to me! And she did have a blast! :)

Check out Em.. and if you can see here face.. pretty intense if you ask me.. maybe even a little biting the lip action.. cute if you ask me! It looks kinda bright out there and well check out the only one who brought some sunglasses??? She is a thinker.. They survived.. had lots of fun.. and are probably a little sore...

Ya water shoes!

Em ROCKs

Em ROCKs CO
Originally uploaded by Jamo267.

Geez... so beautiful out there in Colorado.. And obviously this is my GF out there in.. just lounging on a rock.. a little windy in the pic?? Can you tell?? Either way.. she is wonderful.. and I think this is a GREAT pic.. so check it out!

Bright light!

Today?? What can I honestly say about today? To be honest with ya.. there is not much going on.. Today is Wednesday and it is going rough so far... I am having to do a mailing to all of the returning students which is about 1000 students.. and lets just say that I am still in the B's?? Could take awhile so that is kinda boring.. but it is mindless so I guess that is good! I look forward to this weekend because I will get to see my girlfriend! :)

Today I am also kind of tired because well I went to sleep and slept well! But all I can remember about last night was waking up to my uncle coming in and he just happened to flash his flashlight right in my eyes when he was coming in the door.. and so... anyway... I just ended up rolling over and getting some more sleep.. but I was tired last night at like ten.. but I had to stay up to hear from the girl.. :)

Hmm?? pretty interesting.. I can't really think of much more to tell at this point.. so maybe if I have a revelation or a deep thought I will post it later! :)

Pink shirt and Jesus shoes

Today has been an interesting day! However the day only got more interesting when Joe Jaworski came into the office where I work! Needles to say Joe makes anything more interesting! :) So anyway I am in the back and evidently he is talking about me but I am in the back and can't hear a lick of what he was saying, but he was talking to Betty so I was like whatever.. right.. well then I look at him and he says so that I can hear him.. "He is pretty good from the neck up!" At this point I was standing behind a desk and well all he could see of me was from the neck up.. then after Joe left I went ofter to Betty and he told me everything he had been saying... He said that today I had wore my "Jesus shoes" (my leather flip-flops) and that I had on a pink shirt.. and then he said I must be one a "metro-man"... Lol... He evidently heard it on the radio yesterday and well he got to use the term.... I thought it was really funny.. but I guess you need to know Joe! So for all of you out there who know Joe.. it makes it really funny!

The rest of my day hasn't been anything to special.. answering the phone... opening mail... making copies... and I just started putting labels on envelops before lunch and that is what I will continue after lunch.. so it will be a blast I am sure.. I mean I only have 995 envelopes to put labels on! Yea I know kinda boring... but I am just so blessed to have a full time job.. and I heard once that many things are all about location and well I have some great location! :)

While I was outside sitting at the table by myself eating my lunch I was thinking.. which I often do.. and kind of like to.. but anyway.. Lately I have had this words stuck in my head and they are: "Recycle... Reduce... and Reuse!" And well it is just really funny because I was thinking about it.. I learned this sooooo long ago yet here I am ten or fifteen years later.. still remembering those words!? Is that astonishing.. and I wish that I would have started to learn a foreign language or Bible verses.. I mean just look at the capability of the human brain when it is young and how receptive.. and moldable.. and managable it can be... Pretty amazing if you ask me... Between learning to "stop.. drop.. and roll" or "to look both ways before crossing the road" or "sweet dreams and don't let the bed bugs bite" or "see ya later alligator" or even for me personal "Ovalbumin" :) I am sure that so many of us can relate to this countless phrases.. lessons.. and more.. that are forever engraved into our minds and memories.. which we will inevitably pass on to our offspring with out even realizing.. and the infinite pattern continues... Now we are finally beginning to learn of this fact that when we are little things we are taught are absorbed quicker.. and that amazes me! I know it is kinda deep, but think about it!? And then after thinking about it for a few hours.. ask a 6 year old to explain it to ya?

Well lunch break is dwendling away... more time gone into the future... :) Oh well I enjoyed it.. Miss ya GIRLFRIEND in COLORADO! :) See ya soon!

Busy Monday

Today is the first day after our secretary left the Registrar's office and so being the student worker and not having someone to take over her job full time yet... well I get the opportunity to step up and shine! However... today has been extremely busy.. I have kinda done both my job and parts and pieces of our old secretary's job.. so I kinda feel like I am stretched kinda thin?? Doing two job positions at the same time.. but you know what.. it may sound bad.. but I really don't need to be complaining because it really isn't that bad! I mean it did in actuality make the time go by really fast this morning and I hoping that it will have the same affect on this afternoon!

HI girlfriend! I knwo that you will probably read this at some point and I just wanted to say hi to you way out there in CO...

Last night I got back to good old Jackson after almost two hours of driving.. kinda extreme .. but either way got back said night to my GF.. and then what do you know I get in ready to just brush my teeth and then my aunt offers me food.. then uncle comes in and then they talk and then they sit in the living room (which doubles as my bedroom) and then we watched a part of Jesse Duplantis tape cuz she wanted to show me some of it... so then they finally decided to go to bed and then I went to bed after one.. and had no problem falling asleep however waking up was the trick! Hit the snooze more times than I have fingers on my hand I bet.. then finally got up about the time that I like to leave took a shower.. packed a lunch and got to SAU about couple after eight.. and yet I still had to change cuz I didn't bring all the clothes that I needed in the night before.. so I had to get to work an than undress and redress and then go to work and I haven't stop moving since until this very moment at which my eyes are droping and my neck is bobbing... and I am ready for a nap too.. but I highly doubt the fact that I am going to get one.. .Well okiay so I am faily certain I am not going to get one.. mabe if I am lucky I can rest my eyes after work and working out! But let's just say that it is a good thing that I can type with my eyes closed or else I doubt that I would be posting on here because my eyes are droopy! And stretching feels wonderful! Oh well I guess it is off to play secretary some more.. and what fun it is! Miss ya!