Me and Em and daffodils

Me and Em and daffodils
Originally uploaded by Jamo267.

Hmm now that is a GREAT picture huh? Remember the good old days a couple weeks ago where it was nice warm... yeah that was wonderful.. those were the days of walking in the park, playing frisbee, and football, eating ice cream, enjoying the outdoors, and getting a little sun.

Daffodils are pretty... aren'they? Well I really like the picture for a lot of reasons.. but I am sure you don't want to just hear about all of them.. but I mean what is not to like.. and check out those awesome smiles.. as well as those big beautiful green eyes.. and the blue ones are okay.. but you know....

Thank goodness that today is friday.. a little slow starting.. and a little tiredness to shake off... but I am ready to get this day started... I mean classes and such... Only an our of lecture.. a quiz and then another hour and a half of lecture and I am out!! Wish you could be me huh? Hugs NOT drugs... is what I say!

Rainbows.. they are a lot of fun.. don't you think? I was just wearing around this defraction glasses in my room.. and they defract the light so you see the different colors in the spectrum of visible light from all of the light sources.. it is trippy and I almost fell over a lot of stuff.. but I think it is really need to see all of the rainbowlike things all around... I always found it so fascinated at how light plays such a vital role in us seeing the way we do? And then with the glasses on you can see how many things actually omitt light... At least I found that entertaining as a Science major... but that has to do with physics so I really don't like it that much.. :) Well lets hurry up and get this Friday on with.. cuz I got places I want to go and a person I want see.. so lets get these classes out of the way!

Knightness..

You know I was thinking how is it that soooo many things can make you stressed out or frustrated, yet only a few things can make you destressed.. For example things that make you frustrated like test, work, business, and so on... yet what can you do to destress... massage or just be?? I mean I guess there is more to destress than I think.. but still.. I am glad that I have a stress reliever and someone to encourage me constantly... I am just glad that my week is on the downward trend... YEs.. and maybe even get to relax some tomorrow!!! perfect.. doing a little bible study action.. man can't wait.. well sorry no more time but I am tired and Edna took too much of my time.. so I am out..

Total Rushness

Hmm... so I don't even know what to say.. I just got back from the library and today has been one of the longest days in the world and it is only Tuesday.. Today has felt like two days... it is hard to explain I mean I spent like another six hours with Edna.. then I had a concert.. which was fun.. but more stress... What can I say?? I mean even though it was a stressful day.. there were a lot of great things that happened.... I got to do my concert which was fun.. and I also got to see my family and get to hang out with my family and as my sister says my "friend".. family is great.. and you love your family but it is kind of scary introducing someone you really like to them sometimes... cuz you really don't know what they are going to think and stuff you know?? But it is always a great thing when they like them!!! :) Well I have got to get some sleep because I am extremely drained.....

Compilation

Have you ever had to do something that you really didn't want to do?? What makes us have this lack of motivation? As humans I think that we are incentive driven.. which isn't always a bad thing in my opinion.. as long as you are motivated by the right incentives and still do your best you know?? For me what is my motivation in getting my homework done? Hmmm.. well lately I am always with Edna so late that my motivation for getting my homework done is simply sleep... But I also can't wait until I get some free time which isn't usually until the weekends.. so in some wierd way maybe that is my motivation throughout the week... or what about when getting up to take a shower in the morning has lost it's appeal.. it usefulness.. its incentive... and then it morphs into getting up an extra few minutes just so you can talk to the special someone in your life.. to start your day off with a smile...

Have you ever noticed how included senses in your life can just make your life sound so much more interesting... funny I know.. but watch this... Today I went to work and then I walked to the library only to start and do homework.. Boring huh? but what about now.. As I left work with my shoulders tense and fighting the weight of my bookbag.. I swung the door open only to be surprised by the refreshing gush of wind against my shiny and gleeming face.. As I continued to walk I think of everything but the homework that I needed to do? I could taste my toothpaste and feel my cool pillow... but yet I was destined to be in the library and break my mental sweat.. but now I am back in my small cement cubical of a room.. with my bed tempting ever inch of my body to just sleep.. and I think I might give in here momentarily.. See that is sooo much more interesting to read huh?

So my day was nothing to special.. a little chap chap action then.. work... and then my afternoon was filled with hours of class... and then back to work.. until nine.. and there we go.. a little library action and that puts me back here... where I get to finally relax a little...

Monday.. day after a weekend is always rough.. especially when you have such an amazing weekend and person that you would rather see then do homework or go to class.. Went to the Jackson Symphony.. to hear a lot of great music... Also got to go to a really informative Bible Study on Songs of Solomon... on Friday and then on Sunday a little chill time.. and then it was over.. it was kind of one of the slow fast weekends .... know what I mean.. It is a weekend that kinda goes by slow when it is happening.. and you enjoy it.. but then you get to Sunday and it almost Monday and you are like wow.. where did the weekend go?

Well I think that I am out.. So I can get some good sleep?? But what is the definition of a good sleep?? Or what makes a sleep good?? You know?? Hmmmm.. good question huh?? Do you have to get eight or more hours for it to be good?? OR do you have to dream a wonderful dream.. or dream about some particular person or place?? Does the temperature have to be just right... in the perfect position... Intersting... but if you are like me a good sleep just consists of me in my bed and the rest will take care of itself.. I can't say that I ever have a bad sleep? :) I am quick to sleep and that makes it good for me.. Well I am out and hope to have an above average night of sleep.. grade A sleep..

too late..

So Edna definately consumed too much of my time tonight and was unable to spend my time with whom I truly wanted too.. but you do what you gotsta do?? Not to mention it is already after one and I have got to get some sleep cuz I have test.. quizzes and class... agh.. but it is friday.. and that can only be good.. well sorry not much to say.. cuz all I can think about is sleep.. :)

Detroit what?

Today... was one of those days that was kinda stressful for awhile.. but got better.. :) Went to the detroit Tigers game who verused the Chicago White Sox... sat in section 103 row Y seat 6... and couldn't have picked a better person to sit next to me in seat 7.. :) The game was fun .. but the van ride was great too... especially since.. it was freezing out.. so cold that we ended up using blankets from a hotel to cover up and cuddle and my cuddle buddy was a good cuddler and just down right cute.. with her hood tied as tight as possible only showing her nose.. mouth.. and one and a half eyes.. :) with another coat on.. white socks.. but still so attractive to me! I just look into her eyes and I just can't believe that I am with her... you know?? I am sooo happy that I am and love every moment of it.. Well I got a little distracted and had some interesting entertainment and I will have to tell in person.. because it will be better that way!!! :) Well that is all I am out to dream..

Deliberate randomness?

So what up now? I mean nothing like a long five hours in the library.. but you know..? even after that still not done with homework.. but I just cannot wait until tomorrow to get a break from academics.. for sure.. Nothing like a tigers game and a girl to help you chill out.. I praying that it won't rain tomorrow.. so be praying for me.. cuz no rain and if it must rain... let it rain before seven.. Hmmm.. today was amazing again weather wise.. almost eighty degrees.. Wow.. isn't it wonderful to have such a beautiful thing in your life and not have to hide it.. being able to see that one person.. walk them to their car.. and not have to worry about what others think.. because it doesn't really matter you know? Even with all of these five hours in the library.. I still did not accomplish everything I needed to tonight.. but oh well I will worry about that later.. :) I just want to get some good sleep and just get through tomorrow, which really only consists of work, chapel.. and a physics lab.. So I don't really know what to say.. I mean I am getting tired.. Being in the library.. just takes it out of ya.. lol.. tomorrow is wednesday.. "hump" day.. and almost weekend.. :) Nice.. Well I am out.. cuz that is the way the cookie breaks...

In the lap desk drawer...

Today was such a wonderful and beautiful day out.. and I really didn't get to enjoy it?? hmm.. what else can I say.. I hate another quickie with Edna... doing homework of course... but I was out of there by about a quarter after ten.. Came back and really have done nothing since I have gotten back?? Hmm.. lets see.. I get to go through another day in God's awesome creation.. Today we finished up a visitor day.. and well.. it was fun.. I got to give a tour and such.. and give an amazing woman a walk back to her car.. I really don't have any deep or interesting thoughts.. so I think that I am going to go to bed shortly.. I am out..

bobbi pin

Have you ever known that you had sooo much to say yet.. didn't really know exactly what it was? Well that is kinda how I feel at this point... 10:41 on Sunday evening.. and really don't know what to say.. maybe a little weekend synopsis is in order... Let me think.. I will try to be brief.. But before I write about it lets see if I can summerize in four words.. A beautiful woman, flowers, and time... That is close to four huh? Anywayz back to Fryday.. Lets see I mean not much really happend.. I mean after school and blah stuff.. I got to go hang out with the coolest person ever.. and we ended up watching a movie after a quick, yet eventful trip to Applebees.. Who would have thought a lemon seed and a slice of tomato could be soo difficult.. Sideways.. hmmmmm not sure how I feel about it.. lol.. Stayed up kinda late.. but it is was a lot of fun.. and I mean why not stay up late if you can sleep in you know? It is Friday.. and you do have Saturday... You do only live once huh? Well why doe it become easier to talk the later it is?? Have you ever noticed or experienced that?? I don't know.. but either.. way there was some great conversation on friday/saturday.. Then got some sleep.. On Saturday... they day that many of my friends had to sit through a horrible MCAT test.. I just chilled... kinda bad huh? did some homework.. ran four miles.. ya fun fun fun.. then got to truly enjoy the weather.. go to the park... get some fun pictures with daffodils and other pretty things in my life.. :) Then it was of to walk a mile or so.. just for fun cuz people do that.. then it was off to get kinda pampered because when you wear flip flops all day.. your feet tend to get dirty... so there is nothing like a little peppermint foot soak.. and that is the truth.. because I know!!! Then a little dinner ravoli.. another movie.. and an early curfew.. because you know.. I mean I did have church in the morning.. and well it was a good thing.. Slept.. then went to Church.... and after that.. subway with some friends then kinda just chilled for about an hour and a half before going back to work at four for admissions which was fun.. good old scavenger hunt and such... turned out to be fun.. and then a quick talk/chat in the rain.. kinda romantic huh? Or not?? It was worth a try... and that is my weekend..

Moving onto something else I suppose.. since you have probably heard more than enough about my weekend.. so I mean if you want to stop reading.. understandable... lol... But for those of you truly devoted to finding out and just overall better friends read on because it will truly be enlightening.. educating.. and down right fun.. Read on.. Red hat Ben eats many ugly food and hurts my finger from pulling it to the right on cottage street!? Kinda random and not sure it makes sense but was kinda fun to write.. So I would have to say that my weekend was incredible.. I got to see that special person in my life a fair amount.. ;) Some good talks.. movies.. walks.. and just seeing her makes things above normal... and just plain wonderful.. kinda hard to explain...

Have you ever had those times in your life.. that you are just like YEAH!! and excited about.. that is kinda how I feel right now.. again kinda hard to explain.. but in a marvelous way... PAPA SMURF.... Well what to say.. nothing like some 'fierce' splash in the face to make you love where you life is and is going... :) You know while I was standing in the gentle mist of the rain just looking on... and feeling the rain.. and talking.. it just made me realize how much I really like and ejoy my life right now!? And just standing there in the rain... knowing that God created that rain and made the rain fall and it me in the way it did.. made me feel so alive.. so special.. so understood... loved... cared for.. I had a great weekend.. and a great night.. and a great girl.. I am out..

Funtastic stuff

hmmm.. Surprises... Today my life was just full of them.. and I like getting suprises.. they are fun.. I mean I find a card.. some pics... and not to mention a glacier... I mean even though I had a pretty hectic and busy day... someone sure knows how to make it better.. :)

So if you go to bed at an earlier time.. and then you try and stay up later... why is it so hard to do so? Is it just because your body gets used to a certain amount of sleep and so if is used to eight hours and then you stay up late and only get four it doesn't know what to do?? I mean I honestly don't know?? And another question.. whoever thought about washing machines and dryers... but an even better question is who the heck thought of the idea?? I mean lets but some water, some clothes, some soap... and spin them all together really fast.. cuz I think that will clean them.. Well either way I am sure who ever thought of it.. did not get as much credit as he or she was owed.. so right now I am going to pay my hommage.. (moment of silence... )

I also had the opportunity to go the the Jars of Clay concert tonight and it was a lot of fun... Nothing like sitting listening to some music.. people watching.. with your arm around your special someone.. smelling strawberry grape belches... I mean I had a blast and wouldn't change any of it...

Gonna do like a mad lib kinda thing.. think of the following and write them down and put them in the corresponding blanks.. let me know if you get some fun ones..

1. Noun 2. Action Verb 3. Adjective 4. Thing (plural) 5. food 6. Action verb 7. Body part 8. adjective 9. Name 10. adjective 11. Favorite thing to do 12. Name 13. Adjective 14. Animal
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One day I was just walking down the street when I noticed a __1__. Then I said man I really wish I could go __2___ right now.. because I mean Jamos is just soooo ____3____ and besides I really like ___4___. I just want to put ___5____ in my ears and go ____6____ in the lake. Your ___7___ is ___8____ and so I am just going to go and lay my head down and see what happens.. But I really can't wait to see ___9___ because he/she is __10___ you know?? Well whatever never fear the weekend is here and I am off to do none other than __11___ and maybe include ___12___ if they are lucky... Seeya you later, you ___13____ ___14___!!!

Special Someone

so after another rough start to my day... it only got better.. I mean it was nothing that a half an hour chat in a white honda can't solve. Isn't it awesome how you can have that someone in your life that just is priceless? There to comfort you when you need calming... or there to help you through frustrating and stressful issues.. The person is there to make you smile no matter the situation or circumstances.. The person is there to go out of their way just to make you feel special.. to take that long way back just to spend a few more minutes with you... or burn a little extra gas only to "be" with you a little longer.. Someone who encourages you in your time of need... The person who you can't get off your mind... and you even if you could you wouldn't want to... The person who you love to just spend time with and get to know every chance you get.. and you consider it a priviledge and honor to have that person in your life... Well I am just glad that I have found that person in my life.. and not it is not Edna.. ya I am talking about none other than Em..... and I could go on and on..but I hear it is better in person and I am dog tired and it is not even midnight yet? So I am going to head to bed really really soon... Pray for me and my stats test tomorrow.. :)

side bar

Had another date with Edna tonight?? But still managed to getting back to my room about 10:30ish.... unfortunately it was too late to make the call that I wanted to... but Oh well... I mean tomorrow will be here soon enough.. and I got all my homework done.. and now I jus thave to register for some classes early in the morning which I am not all that excited about.. I just want to get it done... you know?? Well since I had some extra time on my hands I ended up playing a little ping pong and pool and then topped it off with some chips, gatorade, and a banana.. good stuff huH?? But now I am beginning to reach that time at which I am becoming tired... and that is not good if I have to get up early to go register for classes.. but oh well what can you do? Today was an alright day.. got some stuff acomplished.. and well tomorrow/today.. is "hump" day.. aand the week is now almost half over.. and that is definately a great thing because that means that the weekend is that much closer.. Not sure what I am doing besides working a junior expedition on Sunday.. so I guess that means that I am just going to have to make the other days count... Friday and Saturday... :) But I really think that I will have some free time to do some good hanging out and relaxation... and I am sure that it will be enjoyable.. well I am getting tired.. so I guess I am going to hit the sack and hit the day hard early tomorrow morning...

Dream on...

What could I possibly write about already today?? Hmm.. well it has been cooler today... and I did have my most favoritest class ever already... PHYSICS... not realy but on the good news I did get a 118 out of 125 on my last test... That is definately a praise. I ate lunch.. and there you go.. that is my day so far.. exciting huh?? Well in not to long I get to go visit my advisor and try to figure out my schedule for next year.. which is always a fun task... BUt of course I tackle that fun journey I get to go to Human Development lab and mess with none other than the norm of chick embryos... So that is kind of the rest of my day in a nutshell.. but not to mention that I cannot neglect my nightly stroll to the Library.. which will of course occur as soon as possible...

I feel as if today should be a lot closer to the weekend than what it is in actuality?? You know? Maybe it is just me... which could be very likely.. but it is only Tuesday?? What is up with that? What I really want to do is just lay around.. take a nap.. maybe strum a little on my guitar.. and visit with friends.. but hey that will not be attainable until later... acadmeics first?? Who ever made that saying up was no fun...

But even when the week gets tough and the tough keeps coming.. it doesn't stop me from dreaming and thinking.. and enjoying life.. so I will leave you with such a quote... and Dream on....

"The work goes on, the cause endures, the hope still lives and the dreams shall never die." -Edward Kennedy

In a strawberry yogurt container behind the blue star on your desk

"You know for yourselves that we're not much to look at. We've been surrounded and battered by troubles, but we're not demoralized; we're not sure what to do, but we know that God knows what to do; we've been spiritually terrorized, but God hasn't left our side; we've been thrown down, but we haven't broken. What they did to Jesus, they do to us- trial and torture, mockery murder; what Jesus did among them, he does in us- he lives! Our lives are at constant risk for Jesus' sake, which makes Jesus' life all the more evident in us. While we're going through the worst, you're getting in on the best!" 2 Cor. 4:8-12 MSG

When I heard that verse in chapel I thought that it was really encouraging.. so I wrote it down and looked it up in my message.. and really like how it put.. Just remember that when we are going through the worst we are really part of the best is that awesome.. I know that many times I feel beaten up physically and emotionally.. whether it be from running 7.4 miles.. or just doing things not so good relationship wise.. or job situations.. sometimes it just feels like you are going through those trials.. but it is sooo nice to know that God know what to do as the verse above states..

Today started off a pretty rough day for me.. and it just did not seem to go my way.. I woke up and was easily swayed by my own logic into a not so good mood.. kinda depressing mood you know.. and it is never good to start a day off like that.. and then my day continued in a downward spiral when my mood was only fed by my isolation in chapel and at work.. which led to my neglecting of those that I truly care about... Even though for as bad as my day seemed.. it ended up turning out semi or at least pseudo-good.. I did get to talk through some things which helped me to realize exactly what was going on.. and what I was truly doing... Why is it so hard for you to see your own faults and flaws?? Is it just because we don't want to? Or is it because you yourself really has a hard time seeing them? Either way I am glad that I have those persons in my life to talk to... Beyond this my day went on as a usual day... work and then to the library for a good chuck of the library.. That is almost a given and routine...

Blessings in my life have been amazing lately.. and I can think of one in particularly... and I feel immensely priviledged to have that blessing in my life... Why is it sometimes that we almost become desensitized to those blessings we do have in our life?? Like running water.. freedom of religion... having a bed to sleep in and always have food to eat?? Aren't all of these blessings.. but how many of us even think twice about some of these things being blessings.. I just know that God has been incredibly good to me and have given me such a full and blessed life already with numerous things as well as people/person... I just have to continue to remind myself that "God knows"... He knows what he is doing... he knows why he has put a person into my life.. or why he has me where I am.. or why I think what I do when I do... And I am glad "God knows" because there is no way I could always know or even comprehend why? Again I just want to take this time to thank God for all of the incredible blessings in my life and one specific one right now and he knows what it is! :) Thank you for creating us all individually and unique...

I know that I stress out frequently, worry, and probably blow things out of proprotion way to often.. and I really just need to count to ten.. take some deep breaths and remember that "God knows"... he knows the circumstances... the senerio.. and the outcome... so I have to Trust HIM!! Today was kind of a rough day.. but I hope that everything is okay now..

7.4 mileage

So today I decided to go run cuz it was such a nice day.. and I had decided before I even went to run that I would really like to run far today.. and well as soon as I decided something in my head I don't like to give up on it.. so I did run and run and run... I ran my usual 3.7 mile loop.. TWICE.. crazy huh? Well it felt really good... So lets do a little weekend synopsis.. Park with frisby.. football... and Ice cream... Saturday was an ice cream social for the bible quizzers.. a baseball.. game.. then some chilling time.. which included eggs.. fake sausage patties (which were good), and cinnamon bread... This whole fake meat thing isn't all that bad!!! Then watching a little movie.. with Robin Williams.. Final Cut.. and some home videos.. and those are always fun especially when they are not of you.. well either way they are interesting and educational!! :) Sunday was church... running.. library.. pizza.. little chill time.. and then getting for bed time..

So maybe that will make sense but who knows.. I mean it is just a bunch of words strung together.. I don't know.. either way.. Weekends are such a wonderful thing.. I really like them because they are the times in which I feel like I truly have fun and enjoy life college and all the other blessings God has brought into my life.. not that I don't notice them during the week it is not as stressful on the weekends...

Hmmmmm.. tiredness.. I am soo heading to bed.. so that I can get some good zzz... Have you ever been scared?? It is a wierd sensation huh?? I think so... and I got to experience it again after two girls hid behind the pillons of the library and jumped out at me only to surprise.. me oh well you gotta love 'em ... Isn't it wierd what we do and don't have control over with our bodies?? Like reactions... having to go to the bathroom.. I mean no matter how hard you try when you have to tinkle.. you just have to tinkle and there is no way of getting around that one.. same with being scared I mean when people jump out at you and you aren't expecting it.. you get scared and have a reaction whether that be screaming, jumping.. or what not.. I think the same might apply to tiredness.. but I am not going there.. tiredness is a little to controversal for me right now.. especially for me to get into while I am tired.. Well folks that is all she wrote..

casual convo

Hey... so what am I doing at two in the morning writing in my blog.. I have no idea?? But I must confess it is my own fault.. but it was an all in all a good day.. with some great moments..:) I took my physics test and I think I did pretty good.. hope I didn't jinx myself?? Then my day went on and ended up with me in the library with s surprise call that led me on an excursion of eating brownies... talking... smelling some good stuff.. and not to mention hanging out sitting with the sweetest girl.. Always there even to take care of me when I am being a baby, which I evidently do a lot.. but what can I do.. stuff just happens to me.. and I really do appreciate the attention and her caringness for me... and always willing to help.. Ya I would have to say that even my supposedly in and out excursion turned into being an hour relaxation conversation.. But I mean how can it not be a great excursion if I got to see vera.. you know?? :) Then I went back to the library and did some homework for a be but then ended up sitting a table with Jon and Marcy and talking for like two hours at least and didn't leave the library until it was closing at like two... geez what am I thinking?? Night..

Exfoliation...

Exfoliates.. is such a fun word... so I decided that I had to take a shower tonight for a couple of reasons.. one because I knew that I wasn't going to get up in time to take one tomorrow and too.. I really wanted to try out some new and improved shower accessory... Exfoliating.. is such an experience.. almost as fun as it sounds.. kinda prickily painful, yet surprisingly refreshing.. After the shower.. I couldn't stop rubbing my skin.. kinda wierd huh? Well I guess it would have been even wierder if I made others feel my soft subtle smooth skin.. wait I think I might have done that... hmmm well anyway it was great fun and I really liked it.. and I really like doing stuff like that..

I think that exfoliating is kind of like milk... "does your body good".. If milk does your body good what does soy milk do for ya?? "does your body better?" cuz I like soy milk too.. so I figure a little exfoliation before a physics test is refreshing relaxing and just amazing if you will...

Well the library treated me well tonight.. cuz I was out of there by like by like eleven thirty so that was sweet... but then came back here took a shower... and enjoyed my present.. and card.. such a great GIRL.. I am soo lucky.. Well I am tired so I am going to slide into bed and sleep like baby I feel like..

plunders

Today was not to different from any other day?? Woke up and took the oh so familiar ride to one of my favorite classes of physics.. where we proceed to be for and hour and a half and it wasn't all that bad today.. we just reviewed for a test which was helpful.. laid back.. and kinda easy?? Of course the real test won't be that easy?? But then after that the day got better for a little while cuz I didn't have to think about school work until after dinner.. :) I got to go on a little walk with a phenomenal woman.. and that was the highlight of my day.. finding a golf ball.. talking... walking.. seeing people and just being.. what a magnificent and well needed break..

Walking in shorts.. feeling the sun beat down on my neck, close to the burning sensation.. having the wind rip through my coarse and firm hair... getting dirt in my eye.. watching a girl chase down a golf ball... sitting and people watch.. enjoying the weather and especially the sun!! those are the things that made my day.. Then I had to take care of some of the academic obligations... going to the library from like seven until eleven thirty... geez... The library and me are pretty tight.. there is rarely a day that I don't hear the bell go off in the library just to let me know that the library will be closing.. it has began to take on a similar but opposite role of my alarm clock.. The annoying dinging... except my alarm clock makes me get up even though I don't want to ... and the dinging of the library bell.. means that I should leave and that I want to leave.. but I can't?? Bizarre how my life works huh?

Isn't it amazing how differently all of us have been created?? There is no one exactly like you?? Isn't that spectacular!! Knowing that I am my own person and God created me individually and unique for a certain purpose.. How could you even think of enough combinations and differences to make up everyone in the world different. And what about how each person has their own perspective.. and how we all have different ideas, quarks, likes, dislikes, and our own look..

Man.. I really don't know what to do or say anymore.. I am beginning to zone.. can't concentrate.. and my throat kinda hurts from not covering it up good last night??? Agh.. maybe stress and stuff?? I just want to go to bed soon.. so I am out..

Eye contact

Eye contact
Originally uploaded by Jamo267.

sight eye vision

Looking onto to the great and wonderful stuff... I mean life is sooo random and changes so frequently and changes from moment to moment... One moment you maybe thinking about how life is great and the sweet people or person in your life.. or the next moment you could be worrying and stressing about you test in a couple days.. or your paper due within the next few days.. or you are dreaming about what you really want to be doing.. whether it be walking in the unusual summerlike weather or just doing my favorite pass time.. of just "being"

You ever had one of those days where you have to look forward to something else.. like you are on the go.. all day and then you have to work and do homework and go to classes and then barely get anytime to yourself so you have to stay up late and lose sleep to get that time.. Well those are the days that you have to look forward to talking to someone when you get back to unwind.. or thinking about someone in your life that can make you do nothing but smile... or get some external motivation like a slushy to break up the moment... Looking on to those great memories of life that always seem to be at the forefront of your brain and always on the tip of your tongue to say...

Why is it that people are such flustered people?? I mean do you ever have moments when you are going to say something, and you know you are capable, and you know the words.. , but you can't say them.. Nervousness.. and flusteredness... weirdness.. mismeasureable amounts of contractions... confusing symbols.. and regargled words only keep us from speaking what we truly desire to say.. Looking onto those good things.. those unexplainable.. reliveable moments... These are the things that keep us going... the power source.. But when all else falls where are we to look of course it is easy for us to Christians to say Jesus?? But is that really as easy as that?? I mean how hard is it to look to God when everything is going wrong... Like Job.. how easy would it actually be to stay true to God?? And what about those people that don't know God what do they look to when all the memories, people, and materialistic stuff fails them?? Then what?? I suppose that is where we as Christians are suppose to be there and tell them about God.. but again that is not so easy especially when we are here in the arbor bubble.. do you think to some aspect we almost be come desensitized to notice such things?? If you don't use things then you lose them.. so we need to be in constant practice and prayer so that we will stay sharp in all aspects and characteristics that we need be to be prepared for the "real" world and the career and life that awaits us that only God knows.. But it is sweetness that God has everything planned out.. and we just have to live it out.. Just remember to look onto something Greater.. and just remember him in the little things too.. He has put those people or person in your life... the memories into your brain... the sun caressing you skin... the people you can talk to .. those friendships and relationships.. Thank Him and look to him...

Butterflies

Man.. I have been slacking and have not even written in this mug since it has been april.. Wow.. I am getting tired already.. and it is only midnight.. geez this whole day lights savings time stuff is messing me up.. And I mean this only changing time and losing an hour and gaining an hour and stuff is just another topic in itself.. Although I did get a lesson on it this weekend with a clock and all.. and yet I mean it is still kinda confusing..but we won't go there..

School.. blah.. Man don't you wish that I could just be and socialize and not have to worry about the whole homework thing?? I know I do.. You ever get those butterflies in your stomach because of someone you liked.. what causes those butterflies.. and why do we call them butterflies.?? Is there a lack of oxygen in your stomach.. and imbalance of chemicals.. or what you know?? However much we may think that these butterflies are a bad thing.. I would beg to differ and say that they are a great thing.. I mean what makes you like that person.. and drive you crazy.. Butterflies.. it would be as fun if everything was just easy... Make your heart beat faster and harder...

Isn't life a wierd thing? I noticed that this weekend.. Life continues to go on and on and it really doesn't care about you?? Does that make sense..? I mean for instances.. when my grandpa died.. life continued to go on.. the world still pressed forward at its ever so fast pace.. People continued to want things their way and now.. they continued to stop at traffic lights.. watch movies.. go to school.. do homework.. living their lives care free.. The idea it self is hard to put into words.. and seems more complex that my mind can actually understand.. It just doesn't seem right.. when I was there for my g-pa's funeral.. it seemed so important to me and yet when I was driving around everyone was ignorant to what was going on in my life and could really care less in some aspects.. but at the same point how much did I or do I know about them?? Nothing... why is that?? It seems that are lives our society is almost so impersonal.. and so up tight.. and you can only talk about superficial things and can't really show real emotion and have to fit this mold that has been deemed acceptable?? Life continues to go on and there is nothing that we can do to stop it, we need to live in the moment and know that we can't stop time so just remember that?? I mean it seems so simple, but yet it has so many other complex theories and ideas attached.. I don't know maybe I am just in the thinking mood either way... time keeps on slippin slippin into the future.. without regard to me.. and many people are going about there own life self indulged and really doesn't care about anyone else.. and that is just hard for me to wrap my head around... Night