Man.. I have been slacking and have not even written in this mug since it has been april.. Wow.. I am getting tired already.. and it is only midnight.. geez this whole day lights savings time stuff is messing me up.. And I mean this only changing time and losing an hour and gaining an hour and stuff is just another topic in itself.. Although I did get a lesson on it this weekend with a clock and all.. and yet I mean it is still kinda confusing..but we won't go there..
School.. blah.. Man don't you wish that I could just be and socialize and not have to worry about the whole homework thing?? I know I do.. You ever get those butterflies in your stomach because of someone you liked.. what causes those butterflies.. and why do we call them butterflies.?? Is there a lack of oxygen in your stomach.. and imbalance of chemicals.. or what you know?? However much we may think that these butterflies are a bad thing.. I would beg to differ and say that they are a great thing.. I mean what makes you like that person.. and drive you crazy.. Butterflies.. it would be as fun if everything was just easy... Make your heart beat faster and harder...
Isn't life a wierd thing? I noticed that this weekend.. Life continues to go on and on and it really doesn't care about you?? Does that make sense..? I mean for instances.. when my grandpa died.. life continued to go on.. the world still pressed forward at its ever so fast pace.. People continued to want things their way and now.. they continued to stop at traffic lights.. watch movies.. go to school.. do homework.. living their lives care free.. The idea it self is hard to put into words.. and seems more complex that my mind can actually understand.. It just doesn't seem right.. when I was there for my g-pa's funeral.. it seemed so important to me and yet when I was driving around everyone was ignorant to what was going on in my life and could really care less in some aspects.. but at the same point how much did I or do I know about them?? Nothing... why is that?? It seems that are lives our society is almost so impersonal.. and so up tight.. and you can only talk about superficial things and can't really show real emotion and have to fit this mold that has been deemed acceptable?? Life continues to go on and there is nothing that we can do to stop it, we need to live in the moment and know that we can't stop time so just remember that?? I mean it seems so simple, but yet it has so many other complex theories and ideas attached.. I don't know maybe I am just in the thinking mood either way... time keeps on slippin slippin into the future.. without regard to me.. and many people are going about there own life self indulged and really doesn't care about anyone else.. and that is just hard for me to wrap my head around... Night
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