pseudo-understanding?

Have you ever been in such a mood to just sit and be by yourself?? Not a depressing mood but just a wierd mood? Well that is kinda how I feel at this point.. I really don't want to go to human development lab?? don't want to do physics homework.. don't want to do anything but lay on my couch and be... it seems that sometimes the only things that are for certain in are life are the now.. Of course you never know what the future may hold but right now I want the future to include me on the couch just being in the next five minutes.. but of course that probably won't happen... I think this undisclosed mood of me spuratically smiling and frowning may be influenced by my tiredness?? but I don't know.. I just feel like sitting and enjoying and noticing the simple things in life that we are suppose to be thankful for but so easily skip over and take for granted..

Lke watching my chest go up and down.. when I exhale and inhale.. supplying me with the ever neccessity my amigo and friend Oxygen.. looking and realizing I am alive for another beautiful sunny day in God's holy and wonderfully complex world. Sunshine on your skin giving you goosebumps and making your hair rise... being able to be Jamos.. being a unique and individual person who is and always will be Jamos.. having God and the amazing things that he provides and blesses in my life... having the luxury and priviledge to go to school to expand my limited knowledge.. look and notice the underlying and intricate veins in my arms, hand and body which keep me alive.. and not all certain about how these things work but knowing that they do makes God that much cooler and more intelligent.. as well as shows my limits and ignorance...

I theoretically spend 2 hours outside of class for every hour in.. studying Physics.. Human Development.... Statistics.. but when do I get the hours devoted to thinking... or talking.. socializing.. praying... being myself.. and finding my friends.. when can I schedule those classes.. give me some of those credits.. I mean I would be okay with auditing them.. I know that my education is focused but what about the simple things in life.. we are never really taught.. just kind of assumed that we will learn and find out the hard way if we have learned them wrong... I guess in a way though that is what makes everyone of us unique.. and our own person.. but still wouldn't mind get a credit to hang out with someone.. or nap hour.. you know??

Life a lot of times.. can be so confusing.. and just jumbled you know?? I am glad I am not the one who has to know everything and have it figured out... Even though it is scary, confusing, and not always fun.. knowing what is going on.. or what is going to happen.. it is life.. Whether taking things slow... or having to study and not think about anything but academics... or just being on your couch... it is life.. and maybe my next lifelette will be different.. but I know that I can't wait to find out.. I know God has such perfect things and people waiting for me.. and he knows perfectly what I need and exactly when I need them... and that is pretty freaking sweet... so I say take life in your own time with a big smile showing all of your pearly whites.. because you might as well show them while you got them.. I mean you might not always have all your own teeth.. and besides they are God's creation too.. so be proud and smile LOUD!!